I understand
You are gone now. You left me behind. I am in your past now, how could you do that? You are throwing me away. Why does this keep happening to me? Why do I feel like I deserve this? I will never be able to open up. I will never be able to trust someone the way I trusted you. Even though you were the moon and I was the sun in this friendship, you still brightened up my life. If I am the sun then why is your loss causing clouds and storms in me. It feels like a knife slowly cutting through my body. It feels like I am nothing without you. And I can’t help but think that this is my fault. I did something that hurt you. Or are you doing this for fun? None of my thoughts make sense to me. All the times I have helped you. All the times were I have been there for you, crying with you, hating the people you do. All the times I took your pain and tried to make you smile. Tried to get you out of the hole you were in. I got cut while helping you. I nearly lost myself while saving yo...